Depression.

I feel so stupid this quarter. : Second quarter's usually the quarter I improve kahit konti lang. Pero this quarter seems different, unless some miracle happens (I wish). My perio scores are passing (except physics D:), but around the barely passing area. I got three perios that scored 2 points above the passing score. The rest aren't that high, and Physics was simply an Epic Fail moment.

Bio grades down to pasang awa (2.50). I most probably will go down in Chem thanks to my horrible Chem perio score. I have no idea what will happen to my physics grade, with the only saving graces for me were the LTs and hopefully the lab activities. Socsci is ewan. I'm screwed for English (thanks to elocution). Filipino is blah. Compsci's fine (I hope). I think I actually passed math this quarter. And I guess PBPs fine as well.

What exactly put my mood down today were my Bio grade, Maam Bernal's comment in English today, my SS scores and Physics scores. I wonder what happened in Bio. Ang baba na tuloy tingin ko sa sarili ko ngayon. Based on grades, I'm the girl who almost always gets the lowest grade. My self esteem gets lower and lower when that happens. I suck at SS perios. Probably because I'm not interested in History that much. As in when we were watching the SS videos (Egypt, Greece, Maya), the other girls were so interested and excited, while I was all indifferent. Plus they answered me kinda angry-ish (no offense) when I asked why the pharoahs were being brought to Cairo. I forgot it was the capital - sorry na.

And then I suck at memorization. Kaya bio was never my forte. But then I never got lower than 2.25 :((. And I actually passed the perio this time. I guess my quizzes sucked badly.

Maam Bernal said we needed a miracle if we wanted to do well in Elocution tomorrow based on the performances kanina. Super scared na tuloy ako since she let me repeat na. And she said she couldn't remember my grade either. I dont blame her for losing our grades in that fire. But still, it does hurt to know that she only remembered the people who did pretty well. Well, technically, uno na siguro sila =)).